I’ve been thinking a lot lately about what I want to do when I am finished homeschooling my children.
Our youngest is 16, with a couple of years of high school left to complete. Just having one student is so different from homeschooling all 6. I have a lot of time on my hands now. Time that I have been spending thinking.
What Do I Want my Second Act to Look Like?
My heart really is in volunteering and helping other people. Ii already volunteer a couple of hours a week. And I see myself spending a lot of time volunteering in several different places when my son graduates. I also see myself still being totally devoted to my family. I want to be available to my family for whatever they need. Help during an illness, help moving, etc., whatever they need.
Then there are the grandkids (hopefully, someday!). I want to be there in whatever capacity I am needed when my grandkids are on the way and are little. Hand holding, cooking, cleaning, babysitting, rocking those precious babies. I want to be the grandma that has sleepovers and bakes cookies with them, and attends all of their games/activities. I also want/need to earn some money, so I would continue working online with my own businesses.
Sounds like a full life doesn’t it?
After my mother was in the hospital, something else has been on my heart and my mind. My mother was in the hospital for over 4 months, and she had to be on a ventilator. For the last 2 months of her hospitalization, she was in an amazing facility that had only people on ventilators. I got to witness first hand the work of a respiratory therapist. For the last 7 months or so, I have been thinking about becoming one. I would want to work in that facility. Which wouldn’t be a problem, I don’t think. The college I would go to for training puts students in this hospital for their clinical training. So I think getting a job there after I finish my training would be totally doable.
So this is my dilemma.
Do I want to go to school for 2.5 years, then work for several years? I will be 54 soon. I would be 56 almost 57 when I finished school. It is possible that I could work for 10 years after I finished school. I would really love to be a respiratory therapist in this hospital and make a difference in the lives of the people that my never get off a ventilator for the rest of their lives.
On the other hand…..can I really be as active in my family’s lives as I would like to be if I am going to school & working? What about volunteering? How would I fit in all the volunteering I would like to do if I am working? This ventilator facility is working on starting a volunteer program. I already asked to volunteer. So while it’s not an option right now, it will be later this year from what I have been told. I could make a difference in the quality of the patients lives by volunteering.
I am so conflicted! One day I know for sure what I want, and the next I don’t!
Has anyone ever been through this? How did you ever decide what your second act would look like?